Feelings in words

I'm celebrating my 100th post on the blog with some of the nice quotes that can connects us with our feelings and hearts. My Favorites are Mahatma's and Winne the pooh's :)

Love is the strongest force the world possesses and yet it is the humblest imaginable.

--Mahatma Gandhi

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I have found the pardox that if i love until it hurts, then there is no hurt, but only more love

--Mother Teresa

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Am i not destroying my enemies, when i'm making friends of them?

--Abraham Lincoln

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If music be the food of love, play on

--William Shakespeare

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To give and not expect return, that is what lies at the heart of love

--Oscar Wilde

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It's not how much you do, but how much love you put into the doing that matters

--Mother Teresa

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Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage

--Lao Tzu

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Love many things, for therein lies the true strength, and whosoever loves much, performs much. & can accomplish much, and what is done in love is done well

--Vincent Van Gogh

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Thousands of candles can be lighted from a single candle and the life of the candle will not be shortened. Happiness never decreases by being shared.

--Buddah

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Love the heart that hurts you, but never hurt the heart that loves you

--Vipin Sharma

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If there ever comes a day when we can't be together, keep me in your heart, i'll stay there forever

--Winnie the Pooh

Fear

The fear of losing of slipping away, it keeps getting closer

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We all have fears. It differs from one person to another what they fear of. Some fear animals, insects, illness, bacteria, heights, closed places, exams, interviews, stage talks, public shows. Some of us have several things to fear, yet there is always a thing that can be classified as our greatest fears.  

Feelings are precious, and they mean a lot to us. We cherish them like if they are so fragile to be touched. Even air touching them a little violently can break them apart. This is how i see my feelings and more over my heart, the place where those feelings are kept and guarded. I like to think that i hold back my feelings, or to be more specific, i prison them in this hard metal box that no one can open except me. I fear the moment i open my heart up, cause it’s the beginning of a tremendous heartache that will follow.

Time passed, and i learned that opening up is a must so you won’t end up living alone in this life. You need family, friends and loved ones. You need support, love and care. When i tried fixing this “there is a little progress in the area” i started gaining friends more than i was planning to.

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PS: This has nothing to do with my social life and being a very very social person. At the end of the day, people close to my heart are the colors in my black and white life.  

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Now my biggest fear is losing them and ending up alone. Heading back to this plain black and white life. To square zero, like the time i was forced to leave everyone behind. Back then, something grew inside me telling me that i should be the one to be in total control of my feelings, and never allow anyone to hurt me in any way. I should be the one who says when to stop and when to go on. When to stand up for myself and say enough is enough. Words are easily said than done. Because I'm a control freak, and I fear facing the disastrous heart breaking endings so i chose to be the one with the upper hand.  I choose to end relationships and minimize the chances of people letting go of me.  I fear confrontations cause i fear their endings. I hate people who end up hating each other after the love they shared. I favor holding on to the good memories than speaking my mind. I fear losing people, yet when i feel it’s time, then it’s time.

Someone told me that I'm centering my life around people whom i care for, and that i care and worry too much. & Someday they will go on with their lives and I'll remain alone. Those few words brought tears to my eyes because they were 100% true. The truth i keep ignoring and someday I'll have to admit it. I fear my feelings because they will destroy me someday.

Everyday i’m One Step Closer!!!

PSYCHOLOGY PERSONALITY

I never thought there was a test that can describe me accurately as this one, and in as few words as possible :). So if you don’t know me, here is your chance.

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Mysterious... oftentimes, a loner. You know your true friends and only them are allowed to understand the real you.

You’re usually expressive... Open about your emotions and most of the time willing to talk about it.

You search for love... you’re a hopeless romantic and every time you enter a relationship, you give your all and believe “this is the One.” (TRUE TRUE TRUE)

You have so many ideas in mind... You’re creative and aggressive! If you want something, you’ll do anything to get it! (Aggressive, absom bel 3ashara :D)

You’re a stubborn sweetheart... You “love” him/her only because he/she loves you. If his/her flame puts out, you let go with no trouble. (ouch, hitting a nerve)

You’re intimidating! People have an impression that you’re elite—or if not, you simply look sophisticated. You gain praises but not companions.

You’re independent! You’re also risky just like who sail in the vast and dangerous ocean to look for treasures! (I love adventures and treasures)

I’m an Opera Girl

I always loved listening to music, and enjoyed orchestra’s so much. Specially if you get the chance to have a track for a full piece. To enjoy one of those, i put on my earphones, put the volume on max, close my eyes and start picturing scenes that would fit the music. It really makes me float.

Today on the 14th of November, 2009, at 8:00pm (a day to be recorded in history) is my first time to enter the Opera’s main hall. I entered my first full orchestra concert. Simply it was marvelous, magical, amazing, breath taking, eye capturing, soo many things that i can’t even express. This is one experience I'm sure I'll be doing over and over again. It might turn out to be a new addiction.

I’m already into music. I love to listen to Omar Khayrat, Kenny G, Yanni, and lately Gipsea band. And any other nice music captures my ears. I attend concerts for Omar Khayrat on the small hall in the opera. It’s the open air theater, but seems it’s a must to attend one of his concerts on the main hall. It will be great and so for sure different than the ones held in other places.

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Btw, the Egyptian fans really are out of their minds, there is no excuse on earth for them to stop cars in the streets, and try to break down cars that won’t stop for them. I really hated when they did that. After spending a very nice night they almost ruined it for me :(

Outraged

When two good friends fight, and they maintain to keep it discrete for a while that is good. This means that they are mature enough to not let people start snooping around.

When things start getting worse, and people start knowing, then limits should be set. Everyone should really know when to get involved and when to stay out of the whole thing. It’s not accepted that intruders would hunt down your life and your actions in order to make things right. Sometimes things are better left off they way they are. So much damage is done out of that, although there were so many good intentions behind the gestures taken, yet it’s outraging when you feel like people are not respecting your desires. Even if those people are persons you really care for, and refusing a favor for them is hard, but personal desires and self respect is more important.

I’m speechless!!!

Only one sin…

There is only one sin, only one. And that is theft. Every other sin is a variation of theft....When you kill a man, you steal a life. You steal his wife's right to a husband, rob his children of a father. When you tell a lie, you steal someone's right to the truth. When you cheat, you steal the right to fairness.

This was the best lines i read in the kite runner. There is so much wisdom in it. The truth that lies beneath those words hurts and it is unbelievably shocking, but should be taken into consideration. It’s like a life rule, you should always put it in front of your eyes and think twice before saying whatever is on your mind. How it will affect the life of others and yours before that.

The most important thing is, you really should be aware that you don’t say a lie and live it. This is literarily a disaster.

Granting Wishes Part [6]: A Friend is...

Friends to me are my life. They are like the air i breathe. They are chosen upon a very complex criteria that must be met. You can say i have my own HIGH standards for my friends. To make sure that they meet those standards, they go through dozens and dozens of tests. They don't know about that because that's me. Looking fir the tiny things that matter the most.

I'm a person who believes in having friends with different personalities. Why?? Because no one is perfect, so friends should complete each other. They should complete me in one way or another.

A friend is someone who is decent, knows when to push it and when to back off. Knows when to talk me into doing stuff in times I'm in desperate need of guidance, and knows when to only give advice.

A friend is someone who is always there for me when i need emotional support. It's something that is much more important to me than being there physically and doing nothing. Little, tiny things do matter. Saying good morning, glad you are fine, just dropping you a line, or stopping by or giving you a call to say how are you means the world to me.

A friend is someone i trust. And because i don't give away my trust easily " I admit i have trust issues, and it goes way back in time", so people should bare with me till I'm able to open up to them and reveal the hidden me.

A friend is someone who is always a phone call away. I can turn too and rely on when i'm in desperate need of help, or even when i just need a listening ear.

A friend is someone who can sense that there are times when judgment should be skipped, because Confession is hard and takes courage to do them. The fear of judgment is always there, and step one for the remedy is listening ears and an open heart.

A friend is someone who i can spend time with not feeling bad that we are sitting there not talking. Just passing the time through is like being with your own self. No obligations are expected. No judgment is bad like if this was bad manners or something. There is this mutual respect of privacy even when i am with that someone.   

A friend is someone who knows when to use a hug, a kiss on the cheek, and whisper "I love you" in my ears to take all the sadness away and a draw a smile on my face " My weak point :)"

So this is the cheat sheet, are you up for the exam?
People think they are always prepared. Only a few make it till the end. This is expected because

"People enter your life for a reason, for a season, or for a lifetime"